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dream

rubbershoes, khaki shorts and pinks rolled longsleeve and that pretty face hehehe

ganun itsura ni lord allan sa panaginip ko hahaha...

sinamhan ko daw si mama at yung oinsan to apply i guess for scholarship at pinasa namin ang application form sa knya sa office that resembles to SC offices at assistant pa nya si angel locsin

funny

chocolate cream chip venti--- hanppy na ba ako?

(listening to music of gleek.. working and blogging at the same time)

oh God! I feel so down down down...

bongga ang feeling ang OA kc ilang bese ko nang iniyakan ito...

nakakababa ng self confidence ng self esteem...

kasalanan ko bang malaki ang hinharap ko? im sick and tired sa pagapansin sa kin dahil sa hinaharap ko at nagiging tampulan ng asaran o tawanan para akong joke! kainis!
its really hard having these asset esp if you are in a filipino culture na lahat pinapansin at big dela pa malaki ang b...

struggle kc di mo na nga masuot ang gusto mo, di ka pwedeng pumayat, nakukuba na nga ako... pinapansin pa rin ako... kailangn ulitlitin? hay naku i dont feel confortable na nga with it tapos people around me make it worst!!!

nakakalungkot bongga!

april 13

i will 29 on april 13... but nothing special is still happening in my life...

okay romantic...

:( :'(

antagal ko ng naghihintay
hanggang kailan
ano ba ang dapat kong gawin
its sad its really sad
but should i still wait

i just wish i can do the things i wanted to do
i hope that i will give my self freedom and
stop controlling myself and
stop limiting myself in this four sides of my life

i wish to do more of what i need
the things that i know are relevant to me
to help others and gain confidence
and happiness....

tanging yaman

hmmm... roel santiago is avery fictional president in tanging yaman while the role of mylene and the VP (sorry forgot the name) was oh so realistic!

random feelings

a few weeks ago i think a week or two...like before my officemate's wedding. don't get me wrong its not about her getting married... im actually uber happy for her (congrats she!) because she is a dear friend. but it's about some new environment i just realized im in in.

i wanted to post this (below) it just that i was so busy i never got the chance to blog it... though it may be so delayed here it is...

pwede bang magmura sa internet?
in reality, life is unfair-hate it or deal with it!
there are things you can't control but others can
discoveries, revelations and realizations equals disappointments
sadness to the bones
i hate this part!

oh btw, we went to philip's sanctuary for our much coveted teambuilding...hehehe it was fun! kaya ko plang maglambitin sa mga tali! umakyat ng net parang sa military camp at tumawid ng probably just a 4-inch wide na hanging bridge
and not to forget the mudslide that i didn't enjoy much because you will dive in a jacuzzi of mud and naka contact lens ako take note!
but what i enjoyed the most and really really love was the zip line!
ang galing kaya ko pala!

old pics and memories

i don't really remember when was the last time i post here...

ive been too very busy but here's some keeper lines i posted on facebook...

"looking over to not so old pics (when digicams are not yet a fad and slr are still for professionals only!) I miss our SCFA days! I miss all the actions and fun where disappointments were replaced by unity, love, friendship and oooh that friday gimik days! only few are still here and for sure they are gonna stay coz I... am!!! but glad to meet few true individuals too.... and honestly they are not so mean hahahaha!!!"

"so many things to do
so many wonders to discover
so many people to meet
yet so little time to spend
so live life to the fullest
for the future is scarce :)"

many things had happened... we have a little business now waffle --- francon mktg & franchising corp's uncle bob's waffle were so to speak is not so good partner at business. Friendly advice do not deal with them

really got stuck at work- can't even play badminton with night shift sched and that busy business thingy!

at office, with that i (and probbaly most of us!) can't "reach" officemate, that's really sometimes getting into my nerves with the way she treats other and the way she acts! damned!

aside from these, i still like the thought and hoping to do the things i really wanted- like photography, learn to play guitar and swim (so connected huh?!), learn to drive and attend a personality development program! honestly working at shell, surrounded by confident and (probably bcoz of that oozing confi) they became so OC in everything. i became a little not so confident! sometimes, even i do a lot of extra adhoc to boost my confidence (like recently hosting our bgry meeting). I still felt that instead of gaining confidence, i even felt somehow humiliated because they keep on laughing at my mistakes! the hell! why? dont you make mistakes!? i feel like a joke and i hate that feeling! i have never done these things (like acting) at SC but i did here at shell! because i wanted to help the group and my friends! but duh! it will be the last time fine!!!


and after all the stories and works, the past few days that i havent blogging...well obviously the stories above still doesnt count the word LOVE. i hope to feel it really soon or else i might forget how it feels and please i just like someone at my level... someone who can stand by me and my personality.