tanging yaman

hmmm... roel santiago is avery fictional president in tanging yaman while the role of mylene and the VP (sorry forgot the name) was oh so realistic!

random feelings

a few weeks ago i think a week or two...like before my officemate's wedding. don't get me wrong its not about her getting married... im actually uber happy for her (congrats she!) because she is a dear friend. but it's about some new environment i just realized im in in.

i wanted to post this (below) it just that i was so busy i never got the chance to blog it... though it may be so delayed here it is...

pwede bang magmura sa internet?
in reality, life is unfair-hate it or deal with it!
there are things you can't control but others can
discoveries, revelations and realizations equals disappointments
sadness to the bones
i hate this part!

oh btw, we went to philip's sanctuary for our much coveted teambuilding...hehehe it was fun! kaya ko plang maglambitin sa mga tali! umakyat ng net parang sa military camp at tumawid ng probably just a 4-inch wide na hanging bridge
and not to forget the mudslide that i didn't enjoy much because you will dive in a jacuzzi of mud and naka contact lens ako take note!
but what i enjoyed the most and really really love was the zip line!
ang galing kaya ko pala!

old pics and memories

i don't really remember when was the last time i post here...

ive been too very busy but here's some keeper lines i posted on facebook...

"looking over to not so old pics (when digicams are not yet a fad and slr are still for professionals only!) I miss our SCFA days! I miss all the actions and fun where disappointments were replaced by unity, love, friendship and oooh that friday gimik days! only few are still here and for sure they are gonna stay coz I... am!!! but glad to meet few true individuals too.... and honestly they are not so mean hahahaha!!!"

"so many things to do
so many wonders to discover
so many people to meet
yet so little time to spend
so live life to the fullest
for the future is scarce :)"

many things had happened... we have a little business now waffle --- francon mktg & franchising corp's uncle bob's waffle were so to speak is not so good partner at business. Friendly advice do not deal with them

really got stuck at work- can't even play badminton with night shift sched and that busy business thingy!

at office, with that i (and probbaly most of us!) can't "reach" officemate, that's really sometimes getting into my nerves with the way she treats other and the way she acts! damned!

aside from these, i still like the thought and hoping to do the things i really wanted- like photography, learn to play guitar and swim (so connected huh?!), learn to drive and attend a personality development program! honestly working at shell, surrounded by confident and (probably bcoz of that oozing confi) they became so OC in everything. i became a little not so confident! sometimes, even i do a lot of extra adhoc to boost my confidence (like recently hosting our bgry meeting). I still felt that instead of gaining confidence, i even felt somehow humiliated because they keep on laughing at my mistakes! the hell! why? dont you make mistakes!? i feel like a joke and i hate that feeling! i have never done these things (like acting) at SC but i did here at shell! because i wanted to help the group and my friends! but duh! it will be the last time fine!!!


and after all the stories and works, the past few days that i havent blogging...well obviously the stories above still doesnt count the word LOVE. i hope to feel it really soon or else i might forget how it feels and please i just like someone at my level... someone who can stand by me and my personality.

and oh yeah btw, he will be just my dream boy (duh so highschool) he probably doesnt even know i exist! and so for that im still so zero inlove.

hi guys

before anything lots of my friends esp che are november bday celebrants! so big shout out to them! and never to forget lord allan, my ever crush na lawyer soon to be congressman.... he's so cute parang si liza at donna lang!

okay... question is it gramatically incorrect to say "hi guys!" ba? i never meant to say hey guys i really said hi guys parang hello guys ganun! damn, naiinis kasi ako... feeling ko ang bobo ko ung mga officemates ko kala mo english teacher. they love making fun at me. porke bat minsan nagkukulang ako ng s or sumosobra ng s. hello sila kaya ang sumayaw at mag guide ng steps ng hoedown gawin kaya nila yun? nahiya lang ako kay jasper (host) thats why i did it! wala naman kcng gagawa nun! eh yun nga lang inaaya ko silang sumayaw nun nagpapapilit pa eh! i just did it kc ayaw ko nung mamilit k ng tao omarte! ano eh di sinayaw din namin dahil yun ang gusto ng host! ayaw kcng maniwala. ano ako si mommy dionisia, di naman ako nagpapatawa! isa pa yang isa lamang iisa pa lamang watever! just did it because ayaw ko ng mahirapan si sheila na maghanap ng gaganap sa role. im not an actress i nver wanted to! all i want is to write scripts and stories. okey lang na tawanan mo ako if nakaktawa sya...but please dispair me tama na yung twice thrice wag nyo ng ulit ulitin... bumababa n yung self esteem ko. sila nga gagawin ba nila ung kagagahan na yun infront of camera! left me some respect di ko kaya yunginawa sa sc. wala ng aasahan sa kin tong shell na to! sorry ayaw ko ng pagtawanan!

marami kc akong insecurities sa buhay and ayaw ko lang ng may nahihirapan pa if i can help naman. damn! shit! isa pa makikita nila pagkaprangka ko!!!! grrrr....

sad

i was sad...

si she, joked more than 5 times na ayaw nya akong makatabi...

eh hello jokes are half meant that made her jokes true...

then there must be something wrong with me

masyado ba akong maingay, madaldal? do i need to supress my self talking and saying my views. eh i just want to share my ideas, knowledge and learn at the same time. if i dont talk then i will be supressing my freedom to talk?
and it will not be me meaning supressing the true me! hindi na ako yun?
feeling ba nila nagpapkabibo ako at ayaw magpatalo (just like what they always joke about) nagkataon lang lahat....

hay tatahimik na nga lang ako di na magcocomment :(

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